Sunday, June 17, 2012
Mujer # 17
with shrugs, each
arch of back
a warning
de niña I wanted
only the purpling of lips
insatiably biting
plum flesh
nena
if only
you understood
the nostalgia
of collateral damage:
bone snapping and
rogue gaps
along fidgets
you too would
lull into my terminal syphon
rocking, rocking
until spines collide
big bang theory mami
you a universe of atoms
and i an atom
in your universe.
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Playing Jacks
Because your hands like boats
docked into evergreen jumpers
and nylon stockings
Baba didn't tell you so
that the multicultural bulletin
-shades of tan paper dolls hand in hand
were a game of darts.
That you were just the right shade
and the right height to be baby
and not a delinquent
a vagabond, a loafer.
That waiting for the bus
twirling hair and sucking fingers was
not arrestable on the terms of loitering
that the road to Winchester Thurston School
cut through Black Wilkensburgh
Wilkensburgh of cop cars and sirens
scraped knee and dawgs
and drug dogs and Baba
was the pack mule and
you the cargo
the contraband of masala brands
that were not quite not white
but so close to right.
Nena he didn't tell you
that your nail file was a weapon
and playground rounds of cops and robbers
was a punishable offense
Feds breathing down Mumia's neck
when Baba told you speak the truth
he didn't mean to tell
the truth, the whole truth
and nothing but the truth
hey baby don't lie
stick a needle in your eye
or tire swing banter.
When you spoke of Andhra suns
and girls under tents
you pouted
just like you were trained, daahling
Ms. Dialis smiling, pashmina shrugging
orientalism was the only drug on the block
thought it was just all right
bros and hos
booty shakin' ghetto getup
at the school social.
Nena blinded to the west side
school house rocks couldn't be jailhouse rock
imprisoned in the privilege
of semetrically cut cucumber sandwiches.
When you were 9
cops were your heroes along with mama and baba
and the boys on the block
who wore baggy clothes as dark as you were
in the summer during wintertime
were up to something
not imagining 6 year old Regina
was escorted out of class for screaming
because she didn't share because
you didn't either
you
imprisoned by visions of Amreeka
Baba painted for you to protect you
from school prisons and prison schools
what difference does it make anyway
when you are hanging on monkey bars
swinging, swinging
hiding under jumpers and lace.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Dear Mr. Republican
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
play things
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Blend No. 27s
stuttering and stumbling
aware of cilia crushing fires
that chained and arrested me like
a dominatrix cop
creo en dios pero hice en malas cosas
I believe in gods but do bad things
I
disguised coughs as chuckles
you mistook clumsy (a)diction
for femme female,
plumes curling
down opened white collared shirts
you held my hand
showing me off, my red herring lips
pursed- you were so so proud
7 minutes gone
the PSAs scolded us
7 minutes you
puffed, sighing
7 minutes saved
aside for me.
What I loved about smoking
was the sudden gasp
escaping your chest
-dropping beer bottles on sidewalk
-cold hands, canvas, bare back
-skirt slips and arm twist
I loved
that your lips turned grey
and your voice wary, caresses
in the folds of your face.
Mama warned me to stop smoking
why I wheezed
“you look like a bitch”
but
you found
the chingada puta in me beautiful,
dressed my thorn crown
lit black candles and silk scarves
immolation was never so sweet.
Clouds and clouds
you lost sight
of furrowed brow and sweat
smudged kohl
and overlooked
yellowing cotton
eyes glossing, no oxygen
in our dizziness
we breathed intifada kisses
in a mutual martyrdom
communion nonetheless
you left to go inside for a jacket
“its chilly” you waved
the pack still gripped into my arm
nene, lo siento
I smoked them all.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Weights
he moaned across the ocean
screeching for the hem
of mama Sosa’s sleeve
reminiscing a translucent gesture
opaque in the confines of his skull
I held on for dear life, quierdo
like sun-dried mud caked under your empty kophers
to imagine, to imagine
te quería mas de piel mia
mine.
tears that fed trees like milk, calcium
grows twigs resilient to piercing greys
your eyes never left Sugatra
as you peered into me
and into effervescent currents
claiming that blind, dumb salamanders
were your only reality
poor poor niño
and I mean it like you, your people do:
noting the slight boy najwa in his eyes
water in his waist, stickiness
across fingernails
hesitant of the rushes you cause
as your toes spread in terra cotta
clotted earth.
mi amor, nada siempre jamas.
I still cross the same lines
you planted
into my palm
amongst kisses and slight pinches that
held the woman inside of me
hostage, captive in a cage
and habibi
how I yearned
to pull her out by her hair
shaking and shrieking
in fright,
embarrassment , silent
excitement
to sharpen knives in her teeth
and rest her assassin hand
between shoulder blades you call home, where
blood damns into tributaries
beneath peach-blue stretched sky.
Trust me puto
you might as well have the privilege of knowing:
I rub the phantom grease
off my chin and moan.
Clean apron, hunger knife
ai nene
to believe the buds in your britches
once bucked and bolted
against the breaks in my hips.
to know the sight of
purple breasts
caused you to cower
but that’s ok because
even the most famous artists
blush
in front of rigid earth, unfinished business.
Romance prevails reality intrudes
wasn’t it after all sadhana
that saved my astringent soul?
pulling stems from Abrahamic wool
I slouch
and sigh
I have nothing more in my pockets
but seeds for the small birds
tucked in your chest
te quiero
te quería
te quiero nunca jamas.